Emo?

I don't know why, but I feel really out of it lately.

I've become really quiet and to tell the truth, kinda sad.

Am I becoming emo?

I really hope not.

I have no idea what's happening.

Is this a stage in becoming a teenager?

I try to act cheerful when I'm around my friends but I know they can see through me.

Although they know I'm not really myself lately, I really appriciate the fact that they don't make a big deal out of it and just let me be.

I wouldn't know how to answer their questions and I don't like lieing to them.

I can't go on pretending and I don't want to.

I hope it passes and I can be cheerful again.

Yes, I still have my happy moments, but it doesn't feel the same.

I thank God for giving me such good friends who act like they don't know what's going on and cheer me up when I'm down.

I hope God blesses them always and keep them safe.

And to my good friend Hui,

Cheer up girl, you'll find better friends.

I know I'm not your closest or bestest friend but for all its worth, I'll always be there for you.

And by the way, I still want those AAR tics but I have no idea how I'm gonna get them.

Someone, help?

Blessed be,

YingChing.